A week early

Robert, I will have to see what I can do to get back to Salt Lake early. If I do this it would only be because I could be with you a week earlier and we would only have to go 3.5 weeks without one another. I love my grandparents dearly but can only endure so much of their company. I am glad that you are getting some work done for Mary. She may not be impressed by what you have done, but I will be impressed with you and you should be impressed with yourself. You, like myself, run on verbal compliments. This last Christmas my parents would tell me that they were very pleased with me and it would generate good feelings and cause me to do more. They would give me even more praise and the cycle would continue. When I went home for Spring break it didn't seem to work as well. You have spoken about being a better RA on Connie's staff, she would give you praise. Mary could probably get a lot more out of you if she complimented you on the improvements. She may actually be extremely impressed but she just isn't verbal in this area. I think we have a cycle where one boosts the other up and the other one reciprocates this action. This is part of the reason we work so well together. I was thinking about what everyone was saying. I think we really do go together. I think we compliment each other well. Sean first pointed this out to me before he even met you. I miss you terribly but it helps (and in some ways hinders) to write to you. It helps because my spirits are lightened before a stressing test. It hinders because I will miss you even more than when I came into the lab. Katrina and Brian found and apartment. They are going to move Katrina into it Fall quarter and Brian after they get married. I am excited for them. I am going to go into housing to talk to Debbi. The only problem is WHEN do I do this? I could go in and talk to her Friday, but I hope that this isn't too late. Hopefully since we are moving we will be able to get a room in Stansbury. I want to stay close to Julia. She thinks I am going to abandon her once you are back. She is right in some ways. I won't be around as much, only because we won't be in the same hall. Maybe I can talk to Debbi about this too. I would love to go down to Los Alamos to visit you. I think we would have lots of fun. I don't think there is a holiday during Winter quarter though. If my memory serves me correctly there wasn't this past year. I have to go now. It is time for me to go take my test. If you read this before 6:00, say a little prayer for me to be calm and notice all of my little errors. Those are the ones that always mess me up. I need all the help I can get. Especially since I will be thinking of you, though in a lot of ways this will help. I love you very much and we will be together soon for time and all eternity. I love you. Wanda PS I will come back again tonight after the test to write more email to you. Although I guess you know this because there will be more messages after this one. I LOVE YOU!!!

love

Robert, I am glad that you agree our relationship is different, but I never expected you to disagree. Certainly this is why you have chosen to marry me. I love you. I am in a really good mood since I logged on to write you. I don't know why. I do have to go soon though because I have to take my math test. I found out that I can still get an A or A- out of that class. I thought I was doomed to a B+ at the highest. I have studied hard this weekend and I think I deserve a good score on the test. I think I will do well, but I need and A. I have never felt this secure in a relationship before either. You help me feel that way, this is one of the reasons I love you and am confident in our relationship. If wasn't sure that you and I would mae it through eternity together, I wouldn't even try, but I know that we can. I haven't seen much of Tim at all. I hope this makes you feel better, it makes me feel better. I might pass by him once a week at the most and he won't even look at me. He turns the other way. Normally I would be disturbed about this, but I think he is doing something right for once. I usually don't talk to Reilly. He will usually only say something to me as he passes me by on the stairs. I have never liked him in any way. He has always sort of... repulsed me. He only knows who I am because I dated a few guys on his floor in Wasatch. It was funny but no one on his floor liked him either. I usually don't associate with people that cause stress in my life either. Because I moved around so much I had to learn to choose my friends carefully. I had my handwriting analyzed once (it was a science project for psychology that some friends of mine were doing) and over and over it said that I choose my friends carefully. I think I do. This way I can have fun and generally not worry. I like to get to know people that lift me up rather than bring me down. This is one of the reasons I love you so much. You lift me higher and higher. I only hope that this is reciprocated and that it doesn't pull you down. However, everything you have told me so far would lead me to believe that I help you as much as you help me. I have one more letter to respond to and then I have to go to math to take the test. Hopefully I will be out by 6:00. I love you very much and can't wait to see you again. We will be very happy and have plenty of fun. All I REALLY need is to be with you. I will talk to you later. Love forever, Wanda

tigger

Robert, Here is the picture of tigger, the one that is in my plan. Maybe it will remind you of me. You have to find it though, it is somewhere in the middle. I love you. Wanda

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What was I saying?

Robert, I can't remember exactly where I left off, but I do remember that there was a lot more that I wanted to say. I made it to class in time and I think I aced the test. I am going to have to tell Cindy that I am going to be a little late tomorrow because I am going to have to take the written test before work and I have a half hour break. This also means that I won't be able to write to you until after work. Bummer. I only have a few minutes left. I don't know how I can reassure you that I know I want to marry you and that I am fully committed to this. I don't question what Mike said because I know that it is between you and I and Heavenly Father, Mike is not included in this circle. I am sorry that it sounded as if I was questioning your feelings. I am not and I will not. I trust you, completely. This means that if you tell me you love me and want to marry me, I believe you. I often wonder if I come accross a little light in my commitment to you because you keep questioning how committed I am. Please let me know what I can do to reassure you that I am committed. I don't want anything else in the world except to be by your side. This is why I am wearing your ring. I made sure that this is what I wanted before you placed the ring on my finger. Just as Bishop Poll said, "You only want to be engaged once." And I only will be engaged once. I am not going to change my mind and my commitment is strong. You aren't worried that my love for you will change, but realize that neither will my commitment. I love you with all my heart and I am dedicated to making this work. It wouldn't have worked this far if both of us weren't committed to making it work. I do believe that we are also committed enough that we past backing out. I don't think I am saying this correctly. I love you enough to not let my love or commitment to you slip. I am late for work so I better leave now. I am sorry that the message is short, but you know how little time I have. I do hope however that you understand how I feel and realize that I am fully committed to you and that will only increase as time goes on. I love you and always will. Love always, Wanda

Short messages

Robert, Of course my messages were short. I didn't have a lot of time to write and the computers were very slow. Those messages were the ones that I worte Saturday when I only had a half hour. Guess what!!! My account doesn't tell me that I have 3 new mail messages anymore. I wonder how it got fixed. I better reply to the messages because I only have ten minutes before I am supposed to be at work. I love you. Girls aren't always upset when someone wears the same type of dress. I see what you are saying though. Usually when there is a formal dance a girld spends a lot of time picking out the dress she wants to wear. Usually the dresses are unique and they spend a lot of money on them (I don't see the point in expensive, I guess I am too practical). For this reason if another girl wears the same one then hers isn't so original. I did start to reply to some of the bishop's questions, however they were in the mail that got lost when your account went down and I was hoping they would be coming back. It looks as if they aren't going to come back and so I will reply to them once again. I love you and want to finish replying to the letter that I wrote earlier today. Yours forever, Wanda

"Every second..."

Robert, It is funny, I heard "Every Second" last night. I also heard "Don't Take the Girl" and other songs that remind me of you. I missed you a lot yesterday also and I still miss you today. I don't think that I don't miss you at any time. I think it is just harder to deal with missing you at times. A lot of times my classes and work keeps me busy enough so it doesn't hurt so bad, but my mind usually ends up daydreaming of you and me together. It pleases me that I have you counting down the weeks until we will be eternally committed to each other. I thought it was funny when you counted the days (229), I didn't even go that far. The weeks sound just right. The word month sounds too long and 229 is too many days for me. Who is Laura and why are you escorting her? Just curious. If we get a dog, it will not be smelly and it has to be cute. After all we have to look at it every day. My brother's dog looks like a mutated rodent too. I am not worried about anything that Mike Nollar said. You should know by now that the only opinion I take about our relationship is yours and Heavenly Father's. The three of us together will make it work, no one else, not my parents, not your parents, not Sally and not Mike. I am not questioning your commitment to me at all. I know that you are 110% dedicated to our marriage/relationship as I am. It just caught me off gaurd because I thought Mike knew you better than that, I wasn't questioning you at all. I can see a difference in the commitment to me and other girls you have dated, even though I didn't know you or them before. I asked "Could 'MIKE' think this is a phase you are going through," not "Is this a phase you are going through." I know it is not a phase I a going through, I am relying on te answer I got and I feel that you received the same one. Also, I am not depending on your light for this answer. I made sure I knew for myself that I was to marry you. Joe received a witness that I was the girl for him, however, I didn't receive the same answer. When I am with you I know that we received a mutual answer and that Heavenly Father is very pleased with my choice. It is 10:05 and I have to be in class (I have a test to take). I will write more on this later when I have time. That might not be until after my math test though. Please remember that I love you and I don't question our relationship. I may question why I am so lucky to have gotten you from time to time, but I know that you DO love me and always will. I may speak of what other people say, but I stopped questioning if it was right the moment Heavenly Father told me it was. I love you and can't wait to be with you. Your Committed Fiancee, Wanda

phone calls

Robert, Thank you for talking with me as long as you did yesterday. I was missing you really bad. I never thought that I would miss anyone as much as I catch myself missing you. Katrina and Brian came home and Brian commented tht I was in a better mood. Katrina asked if it was because I talked to you. I told her it was. She had commented that Saturday was really bad, and it was. The only reason I didn't call you Saturday is because I knew that you would be calling Sunday. Again, thank you. I love you. I have to go now because I am late for class. I have to go straight from my classes to work and while I am at work I will study for my math test some more. I will only get to write you a tiny bit today, but I will come back and write some more after my math test. It starts at 5:00, and it will probably take an hour or two. Last time we had a test he lectured the first half and then we took the test, but this time someone else is giving us the test so I think we are taking it right away. I better go. I love you and I will continue to think about you as the day progresses. Love always, Wanda