Tuesday, July 19, 1994

Golfing

Robert, Yes it does seem that we enjoy a lot of the same things. You asked though about golfing. The only golfing I ever did was minature golfing. Myrtle Beach (in South Carolina) is the minature golf capital of the world. I was never really great at it, but I wasn't terribly bad. Sometimes I would win, sometimes I would lose. It usually depended on the day. I won't discount real golfing I am willing to try anything once (well ALMOST anything). Usually with enough coaxing, YOU could get me to try anything. It has something to do with that "trust" thing. I love you. I can't wait to see you. I just want to be with you. Is that so bad? Surely I better want to be with you if I want to marry you. Brittany, my 13 year old cousin, asked me "why do you like him so much?" (I kind of ramble about you all the time) I asked her, "why does your mom like your dad so much?" She told me, "Well, they're married." I wanted to shout to the world "I am going to be the future Mrs. Robert Husted," but I contained myself. I love you and can hardly wait to be with you forever. That's commitment isn't it? Well, maybe it doesn't seem so scary at times. Surely it is a big decision, and the floor can seem quite cold at times, but it would be impossible to go on through all of eternity without you. That idea is even scarier. I love you and am excited that I will be able to see you soon. I am glad that I am not in many of the Jennifers positions. I know that you love me and want to marry me as I want to marry you. I hope you know that my desire for this and my commitment to you is very strong and will remain that way for always. I REFUSE to pressure you into coming up with the ring and asking you. I am patient. You reassure me everday that it will be coming. I can wait. It isn't easy waiting to announce to the whole world that I love you, but I can do it and therefore I should do it, for you if for no other reason. I love you and therefore I trust you (vice versa also). I trust your love for me that it will burn strong and I want you to know that my love will in return always be there for you. Our relationship isn't, and shouldn't be one-sided. Do you remember when you were questioning our relationship when Mary Covington said that I was too young? Don't heed to what Jennifer says. You know me FAR better than she does. I will not panic without a ring. All I need to know is that you love me. Your love will sufice more than any material possesion. I feel like I have been typing forever and haven't really said anything. I have just walked around the same bush over and over again. The point of the last few paragraphs is: I don't care if you don't have a ring. I don't care if you don't officially propose until the day before we get married (surely this is an extreme). I AM patient and I will wait for when it is best for YOU to ask me. I love you and that love is returned. That is all I need. You were correct when you said that the ring and the marriage ceremony are just symbols of our love and commitment. They are important symbols, but they are symbols all the same. People in South Africa are plenty happy and I am sure that they don't have elaborate jewelry to express their love and commitment. I love you. I am going to go to my class now. I will see you soon. Only 34 hours. Your bride-to-be, Wanda

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