Resume

Robert, I have a huge favor to ask. Do you think you could send me a copy of our resume (if you have one). I need it for my computer science class. I would greatly appreciate it. I just read your letter about jewelry. A cracker jack ring would be fine, a gold band would be great, anything more is just frosting on the cake. Anything will be fine, as long as it comes from you. Oh, and by the way, if you ever want me to kiss you again, don't get your tongue pierced. I love you. I am not going to write for very long tonight, (the lab isn't open for a long time anyway) but I still have to go home and eat MY lunch (then again, I didn't eat breakfast either). When I rush out the door (like I did this morning) I tend to forget that my body will get hungry. Usually I am not hungry at that moment and that is why I forget about food. It usually hits me about a half hour later when I am sitting in my first class. I haven't been home yet since I left at 7:20 this morning. I don't really want to go home. I know that Tim will be there, and I just don't want to talk to him, especially after what he said. Maybe I will pack me something and head over to the study rooms in PT to finish my personal finance, DBase, Computer Science and my math. My personal finance will take a lot of reading. Then I have to type some information up (I might do that tomorrow). My DBase is just more reading, (3 sessions) and I have a lot of reading to do in Computer Science. I have a test sometime this week (I am not sure what day) and I haven't read at all. The only assignment she handed back I got a perfect score. I am escited about that because it was a paper I had to write. I know that the other assignments are only easier. Is it wrong to want to avoid Tim? I suppose in some ways it's not, but I am sure it would only be proper to be polite. The only reason I am having a hard time with this is because he can't see how much I love you, and I thought that was apparent to EVERYONE. He really is blond. I know that I am to, but at least I know when someone else is taken (such as you). It is interesting that this girl he first started dating was this Fresh in Michele's apartment. She had a sort of boyfriend in Germany. Becky was really cute. I think that originally she was attracted to him, but she doesn't know what she wants (unlike me). I am glad that you feel comfortable knowing that my love is for you, and for you only. It makes me feel that I am communicating my feelings correctly, and I only want to make you happy. I can't wait for the day we will be together, it will happen soon enough though. My mother wants to come up in August so she can scope things out for our marriage. She is almost overly supportive of me. I would rather have that than what Katrina has. Yesterday Katrina talked to me about it (she really started to cry) my heart went out to her. I wish tht I could have told her I understood what she was going through, but I don't. When my mother tells me that I have her support, I REALLY have her support. Katrina's mom tells her that she has her support and then tells everyone else how she feels. She tells me how she feels, she tells my mother how she feels, she tells the kids she teaches in primary how she feels, she even tells Brian how she feels. She doesn't want Katrina to get married. She told Katrina that up until now she has been the Pilot of Katrina's life. And now Katrina wants to take over and be the pilot, but she doesn't feel that Katrina is old enough or mature enough to take on the responsibility. (I don't know if you were ever told of the messy stuff Katrina's mom went through, if not, I will tell you sometime and you will understand the fear that her mom has of marriage) Katrina told her mom that if she wasn't going to relinquish control of the airplane willingly, Katrina will just have to hi-jack it. I haven't a clue what to do or say to make her feel better, I suppose there really isn't anything I can do or say. Julia came home from work yesterday and cried to me about how awful it went. I never expected to see tears come from Julia's eyes. At first she comes across as one of those tough girls, but she feels she can trust me enough to tell me what's wrong. I think that is awesome. She only used to confide in Shelly, but since Shelly is gone, she needed someone else. She also asked me what time church started. She hasn't been to church her whole college career (3.5 years, I believe). She also feels comfortable enough around me to tell me about her family life. She loves them, but is only able to be close with them when she is away. She confides a lot in me (good and bad). She told me that I was more like Shelly, not her mom. She said that I am constant and I don't change. She said that I don't judge her. She said that growing up in high school some of her good friends told her, "well, for as dumb as you are, you sure do manage to get in the smart classes." She says that I don't get down on her and that I accept her for being her, not for having to pretend to be someone else. I think that she has come to trust me because I am not Miss Molly Mormon, like she seems to have a lot of bad experiences with. That is why I have a hard time living in Utah and would prefer to live elsewhere (however, if that's where your job is, so be it). Utah Mormons tend to be a little snooty. Being LDS isn't a religion, it is a social status, a way to be better than the Jones's. I guess I should get off my soap box now. I am sorry if I sound a little preachy, but it really gets my goat when someone is shunned for not being a "proper" mormon, or not being a mormon at all. That pushes people AWAY from the church and we should be drawing them to first and foremost by example. The church is the center of my life and makes me completely happy and I want others to experience that joy, and it saddens me when someone runs into Miss Priss Mormon. I am so glad you are not this way. If you were fanatical about the gospel (and by this I mean pushing people away with your attitude) than I would not marry you. I love you for your strength in it and I love your testimony of it. I only want to share my happiness and you share it with me. I love it when you get serious about things, I love your goofy side too, but when you are serious about things it helps me to see inside your heart and I love you that much more. I have babbled on long enough here. I was going to leave quite a while ago. Oops. I hope you know that I love you for everything that you are and everything that you aren't. I will always love you and no one else. Someday soon I will be able to hold you in my arms forever and feel the comfort of your nearness. I long for that day. Love always, Wanda