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Robert, After these two messages, I will only have the one that you sent me this evening after I went to math and you talked to Steve. Since we did talk last night, these seem old, maybe that's because they are old. I think if we correspond by mail and talk more often we won't run our phone bills up so high. I really should start conserving my minutes to talk to you on Sundays. I am, however, glad that we talk other times too. I agree that our relationship/love/concern has grown stronger since we have been away. Imagine how much stronger it will grow when we are together. I want to only be by your side, nothing more. You had also said "you are there and I am here, that means one of us is in the wrong place." It is funny because I sent you a card with the exact same saying on it the day I got your message. The more I think about it though, we are wrong. I don't think it is one of us that is in the wrong place, both of us are in the wrong place. I will be in the wrong place as long as I am somewhere other than by your side. I know that sounds corny, but for me that is the ONLY right place. Math was really boring (I left 20 minutes early). All we were talking about were logs. I remember logs, I never had a problem with them, I always found them really easy (even when dealing with Chemistry which was when everyone else hated them). I am excited to be with you and move down to Los Alamos. I think going to school down there will be a blast. Actually, going to school anywhere with you will be a blast. I am not just saying that either. Being with you always calms my spirit and makes me enjoy the blessings that I have (i.e. you). I am so happy that Heavenly Father allowed our paths to cross. I am sure if they didn't cross then, they would have crossed later, but he knew we were ready. We might not have thought that we were ready (after all, marriage is a BIG commitment) but I love you and that is all I need to be ready. I thought that it would be a while before I was "prepared" for marriage, but I was wrong. I didn't need more preparation, I only needed someone that I could truly love. I could have only asked for one thing other than completely loving you, that was for you to completely love me, and you do. I have never felt so empty being without one person, nor have I felt so full being WITH one person. You make me complete and my heart full, and I love you for that. I didn't even miss my parents for a whole year as much as I miss you in 5 weeks. You also have witnessed a fraction of how close my family is. I am anxious to join your family and am excited to have you join mine. I know tht we will discover true joy together as we near the eternities with each other hand in hand. Sherry and her husband have been married for 6 years now. They never wake up without telling the other "I love you," and they never say good-bye without giving each other a kiss (in person of course). I think that this is awesome. She says that it helps strengthen the marriage in many ways and hold it together. For one thing, she knows that she kissed him that morning before he leaves to work with female co-workers. It also shows their two kids that mommy and daddy love each other. This I think is good and healthy. I agree that arguments should be kept out of sight and hearing range. I have never seen my parents blow up at each other. The only times anyone yells is when my mother yells at my dad when she is frustrated with something else someone else has done. This CAN be damaging. When we were younger it confused us. My mother would often say "I am yelling to your father, not at him." Don't get me wrong. It wasn't screaming, it was a very forceful voice and we didn't hear it that often, but when we did, we knew that she was upset. I also had a friend whose aunt made her promise never to sleep in a separate bed than her husband. I will make this promis to you. I will never kick you out of OUR bed. I will always sleep by your side. The only exception to this rule is when you are on a business trip, and it better be a BUSINESS trip, because that is when we need to share a bed the most. I must go now. I almost hate ending a letter to you as much as I hate saying good-bye. I have rambled on enough though. My Personal Finance is calling me, along with my test in BEAS 170 and my test in Computer Science tomorrow. I miss you, you are always on my mind. I love you. Love forever, Wanda PS. Are we still going to watch Bobby Fischer? I thought that that was the one we were going to watch on our own. I don't know yet if Julia is going to watch The Lion King with us. If she does than I will also invite Sean. He wants to meet you. He saw you once, but he wants to get to know you. He says that you sound like a great guy and he wishes us an eternity of happiness.