Kisses

Robert, Yes, it was Wednesday night that we first kissed. It was exactly two weeks later (another Wednesday night) that we went back up and you told me that you loved me. I am also glad, in a round about way, that your car got hit. I am glad that you decided to kiss me, and yes YOU decided. I never would have, you used the "I never kiss a girl first" line. It was a decision that you made. Hence, YOU kissed ME. I am glad that you did though. I am glad that we went back up. I love you for telling me that you loved me. You said that night that there was something you were going to tell me, but weren't sure if you should. I am glad you did. In a way I feel like you have made all of the first moves. You were the first one to reach out for a hand (although yours is the first hand I ever let myself hold) and you were also the first to talk seriously of marriage. This feels right. Usually with guys I went out with I knew they wanted to kiss me, but half of them never would have so I had to taunt them beyond their control. I always regretted this later because I tired of them and had to tell them that I hadn't really fallen for them. I love you so much and I am glad I let myself kiss you and I am glad I let myself hold your hand, but most of all I am glad I let myself fall in love with you as hard as I have. Back on the subject. Usually I had to hint or taunt, it was part of the chase, but with you I gave you complete control. I didn't try to taunt you to kiss me. You initiated it. I didn't try to drag what you wanted to tell me out of you. Okay, maybe a little, but you let me know that there was something you wanted to say, I didn't guess and prod you until you told me. I love you for that. You took control. I have been missing that with any guy I ever dated. I am used to having the control in a relationship, usually the guy doesn't realize I ultimately can get him to do anything I want him to, and I usually did "manipulate" the situation to get what I wanted. I love you and want you and I freely give you the control (which is how it should be, you are the priesthood holder) I just never trusted anyone enough before to relinquish my power. I know that the last paragraph made me sound like a power hungry female who thinks she can have her way when she pleases. That is not the way it was meant. What I am trying to say is: There is a certain authority you have that I am willing to submit to. I have never been willing or trusting enough before to do so. It isn't that I didn't want to trust, I just didn't dare. I love you and you are my strength, my support, and you haven't abused the support or love I give you. With our Father on our side, we will continue to have this righteouss relationship throughout the eternities and I can't wait. I have to leave now. Work is calling. I am hungry. Ich habe Hunger. Ja Fa. Tengo mucho Hambre. Iyo Affirmato. Take a guess at what I am saying. (do ya' got it yet? It means I am hungry in a few different languages.) Try this German phrase. Ich liebe dich. For now I must go, but I will try to write more later. Love always, Wanda