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Robert,

I think I got more messages from you since my last message in distress, but I cannot tell because the computer won't let me read them. I don't know what went wrong. It is being so impossible. No one else seems to have any problem. Just my account. In reference to the last letter from you that I got to read, I haven't been telling everyone we're engaged. We're not. . . yet. I wonder if Emily knows Katrina. Katrina has heard us talk over the phone and I wonder if she has just assumed that we are engaged. I don't know. Also, you said there were some questions which I had not yet answered. Were they specific ones. I think I remember some, but I am not totally sure. Usually I get involved in answering another aspect of your letters that I forget there was another part. I would go over them if I could, but my account won't let me into my mail. It is so frustrating. I don't have a clue as to what's up. I am not even sure if MY letters are getting to you!!! You can't even tell me if they do because I can't check any messges that are sent to me. Wait a minute. If you get this message write a short response to Katrina telling her to inform me that you got this letter. You can reach her at "KWALLES." My math class went by so fast today. It is the only one I enjoy. Probably because it is math. I remember most, if not all, that we are doing right now. It is so much fun. I wish that my other classes were this way. They probably would be but I have a fun class, math, to contrast it to. I miss you so much. Just walking down to the Wattis Building I saw the sun. I was reminded of Monday after I finished typing to you. I walked home and I watched the sun go down. The only other time that I had seen that was when I was with you. It made me miss you all over again. I can't look at the moon, the sun or the stars and I am reminded of how much I love and miss you. I can hardly wait for these few short weeks (or long weeks, depending on how you look at it) to end so I can be with you again. I thought that you seeing me off at the airport was hard. I don't want to know how hard it will be to see you off. Especially after growing so close to you and being with you again. I am going to want to go with you right then. I won't want to wait until January. I helped Tim set up an email account today. You will be happy I did so because now he will be able to write to a girl that he kind of likes up in Idaho. He asked me on the way to the computers, "so how is your boyfriend." He also said, "With all the excitement you had about calling him last night, you guys must be getting pretty serious." I told him that you and I were and then he commented that he was glad that I really loved you. He said that he was glad that I knew what I wanted and I wasn't just giving you mixed signals until I figured it out. That got me wondering, did I do that at all? If so I am really sorry. I am glad that you stuck it out, just as glad thtat I stuck your "two week" period out. I am so happy that we have allowed things to go as far as they have. To be honest, I am surprised that neither of us backed out earlier as we saw that it was getting serious. I have a past of doing that. I tended to not tell the guys that I didn't want it to get serious, and so they always assumed it was going in that direction, when I didn't see anything in them at all. I rarely expected a relationship to develop out of any of the guys I dated -- and it never did, until now. I am glad it did. Hopefully you will get this tomorrow. I can continue to send you letters, but you can't mail me any. That is kind of depressing on my part because I can't hear from you. Writing you, however, kind of eases the pain. I wish it were possible to just get another account until this one gets fixed. I would have taken Emily's (no, you don't know her), but I gave her account to Tim to use because the computer told him that he didn't have the correct social security number. I am so upset. It's not fair!!! (I sound like a little child throwing a temper tantrum) I hate the stupid vax system. If it weren't for the fact that it was my only daily link to you and an occasional link to my father, I would avoid it all together. Along with my three M-Th classes, I also am going to take an institute class. I already know which one. It's on Tuesdays (oops) with Bro. Valletta. He really is a great teacher. He teaches you all the in depth stuff. He says that it is up to us to find the application and apply it in our lives. He really goes in depth. I am also going to take the summer chorale with Katrina. I love to sing (it doesn't mean I do it well though). I also have my flute lessons every Tuesday. I also want to talk to Bishop Poll and find out if I can get a key to the organ and the chapel so I can continue to practice. My mother said that usually they let people do that because they encourage people to develop those kind of talents and skills. I haven't talked to your parents yet, or Mike. I will try to get a hold of your parents sometime this week. I want to call them before they call me. I will also try to get a hold of Mike this week. Well, I have mail on my account. I won't be able to read it. It is from Sean. I am going to try to call him and see if he can tell me what is up with my account. I will write more later, and if I can't I will definately write tomorrow, even if I can't read any of your messages. I love you.