Marriage

Robert, I thought it was cute that your friend, Scott Knell, quoted from Much Ado, and I find it rather funny that the chapter and verse that he quoted (which was only the last half) is the one you had commented about telling my dad. Doesn't everything just seem to match. By the way, when you asked me out it didn't seem like you gave up on dating. You had been out with my old roommate, you were going to ask Edie out and you were still dating Emily. How lonesome were you? How tired of dating had you been? How long had it been? Were you just so used to dating after being an RA that you couldn't give it up Cold Turkey? I am just kidding (in case it didn't seem that way). I am glad that you dated the people that you did. It makes me feel lucky and safe in the idea that you want me and no one else. In case I haven't made it clear, I have chosen to be by your side. I didn't just settle for you. As sung by Boy Howdy in "She'd Give Anything," " She won't settle for less then true love. She'd give anything, to fall in love." I love you and want you to know that it is true love. I have never loved anyone as much as I do you. Know that you are not only in my mind, but you are also in my heart. You are right. Everyone receives the Spirit in different ways. However, by just one person, the spirit may be felt differently for different guidance. I have had the "lightning bolt" revelation. It was, though, a warm lightning bolt. But it came for a different reason. I was receiving knowledge for a different reason in a different way. Answers to prayers likewise come in a different manner. When the "lightning bolt" hit me, it was Heavenly Father's way of telling me that I was going to make it and that I HAD to make it. It was basically a spiritual "kick-in-the-pants" telling me that I was loved, a great deal, and that I shouldn't have forgotten it and that I never should. There have constantly been reminders of this whenever new problems with Steve arise. Which by the way, we will have to deal with sometime. When one prays for truth, a different "confirmation" feeling is felt. When one prays for guidance, we must first ponder it and then he will assist us in knowing when we have made the decision which will further our happiness into the eternities. Any father would want that for his children. I am sorry if it sounds like I am on a soap box (I jsut read it and realized it can be taken many different ways with different voice intonation) I am not. I am trying to tell you that I love you and I know that Heavenly Father is happy with my decision to marry you. It is the decision he would rather I make. I love you and I am not going anywhere. Rest assured, that it IS with you that I am in love and not the IDEA. I want to be with you for eternity, and no one else. It is very rare for me to make ANY type of a commitment with a guy, just because I don't want to be taken when someone better suited for me comes along. But there is no one out there that can fit my needs and wants better than you do. I love you. (My fingers have been having a hay day. They keep typing lvoe instead of love. I have to keep going back to correct it.) Which reminds me. Have you noticed the change. Before I was always skeptical of saying "I love you" to anyone. I wanted to be sure it was really love I was feeling. Do you remember the night you first told me that you loved me? Now it seems like I can't tell you enough that I love you. I love you. I also miss you terribly and I noticed that I am constantly telling you that. It feels so lonely here without you. I am not used to being without you. I don't know why I should be used to being with you. I didn't date you that long before we parted. In fact the "first two weeks" I barely even saw you. It was really the last two weeks that things started to fall into place rather quickly. It seems like you have been away for longer than I dated you, but then again it has only been 3 weeks, although these past three weeks have seemed like three months. and can't wait for these last three weeks to reach an end. I love you and miss you. I believe I still have more mail to respond to, including one to Sean that I haven't read yet, but all the others are from you. I love you. Your girlfriend, Wanda