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Robert, I am definately behind in writing you. Not only do I have the messages from yesterday AND today, but I also have to rewrite some letters that I sent that you never got. I really wish that you would have gotten them because I know there was more than just responses on them to your old mail. I am now responding to the 194th letter you sent me. You are so sweet. I can't rember if I responded to your RE:counterfeits, but to touch that one lightly again (if not for the first time) our love is not and I don't think it ever was counterfiet. >From the beginning you pretty much let me know where you stood. You told me about the "two week thing" before it ever happened. (Which you said my weekend with Jenn cured that.) I hope I let you know where I stood too. I at least have the satisfaction of letting you know that I was constant in my feelings. I am glad that you believed me and now you KNOW that my love for you will never decrease but only grow stronger. In your letter you told me not to worry about Laura, that you weren't interested in her. I wasn't worried. I was just curious as to who she was and why you had to escort. I don't worry, I know that I have you hooked. All I have to do is reel you in. The only problem is that when I reel you in, you take me with you (actually this isn't a problem). Don't worry, we are doing everything BUT rushing things. I love you. I know that there were a couple of letters that I didn't respond to Friday, but I pretty much told you what I wanted to say when I talked to you Sunday. You said that you like the theater in Ogden. Last weekend when Sally and I went to see The Client, we were at the theater by my grandparents house. The theater we saw it in had a huge screen and high back chairs that rock. I thought of you. I also am thankful to our Father in Heaven for allowing us to find and love one another. I surely don't express this to Him as much as I should. I am also very grateful that he allowed me to remain calm about our relationship as much as he did. Usually guys made me feel used and this made me want to drop them. They would usually tell me about how they felt. You are the first guy I have dated that has asked me how I felt. Surely some wanted to know (and later on wished they would have) but have been to wrapped up in themselves to make any kind of an effort. You are also the first guy that I care about how you feel. I always wanted guys (and girls for that matter) to feel comfortable around me, but never have I wanted to know about how they were truly feeling. A lot of times I would get curious and ask, but generally it was just that, curiosity. With you I honestly do CARE about how and what you feel. I love you. I think that this is one aspect of love. It is also refreshing to hear that we have received the same answer. I know that I want to marry you and be with you always, and I know that it is right, not just lust. I have babbled long enough on one letter when I have many more that I should respond to. I love you very much and I will see you in 17 days, You eternal companion, Wanda (I feel it is safe for you to assume that I am already your eternal companion. I am already committed to you now and I will still be committed to you in March, we will get married. There is no stopping it now, I think we both know this. I love you)