talking

Robert, I am glad that we talk about things. I tried not to interrupt you when we were talking about interruptions. Did I do a good job? Hopefully I will consciously remember, this way I will continue to make an effort. In time, I should be out of this habit. Please continue with what you say. A lot of times I might take you not continuing as being finished. I want to hear what you have to say and I don't want you to feel ignored. Sarcasm: I don't think that sarcasm always belittles people. I can sense it in others, but I have always had a hard time using it. Maybe the reason I don't cut people down is because I don't know how. I don't want to be taught either. Whenever my brothers and cousins would have cut down wars I would always lose because I am not witty enough to come up with something to say. I also want others to be happy. John and I constantly had lengthy discussions on this. He would ask me why I do something and it was because I wanted to see people smile. This is why I often came across as a flirt. I knew that I couldn't make everyone feel good, but John helped me to understand that if I continued to try to make others feel good, that wouldn't allow themselves to be happy, I would be drug down with them. He said that I feel a lot for others. Ever since then, I am a happy person, but I am more selective of the people
I give part of my sunshine to. I choose the people who will return it instead of drain it from me. Robert, I can't recall a time when you have teased me too much. I rather enjoy teasing. However, if you reach a touchy subject I will be sure to let you know. Please mention it to me if my teasing becomes to much. I don't ever want you to feel like you can't talk to me. I love the way you tease me. I also enjoy your serious side. It was when you let me see your serious side that I realized I was completely in love with you, with ALL of you. I DO learn a lot from you and for this I will continue to love you and I will be eternally grateful. We should develop a signal that means "let's go." A lot of times I am anxious to go somewhere when I think you want to stay. I usually let you stay and then find out that you wanted to go too. (ie. my grandparents, after The Lion King) Don't get me wrong, I love my grandparents, I just love you a whole lot more and I want to be a little selfish. My grandma can keep anyone there for hours on end. My mother can get this way, but she understands when someone wants to leave and picks up on their little hints. I have never put this much mental energy into a relationship either, but if it means being with you for an eternity, it is worth it. I love you and I also know that this is right. We will be by each others side for an eternity and I will love every moment, even the ones when we will argue. All I want for us is to be together, and this will happen (in 31 1/2 weeks, but it WILL happen). I love you and I know that you love me too. This thought often comforts me as I go to class, as I stress for finals, as I go to work and as I write to you over e-mail. If I didn't know you loved me, I would be stressed and panicked when I wrote you. I am so glad that I fell in love with such a wonderful man. I love you with all my heart, and the love doesn't stop there. I will see you soon, 10 days to be exact. I love you. (I miss you too, but I want to dwell on the happy feelings rather than making me miss you more.) Love forever, Wanda